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The thought hits my head like a battering ram.
The walls shake and rattle with the blow.
Again and again, I feel the idea slam,
Carried by my demons from below.
I throw my liquor cabinet in the way
As I hear the thoughts clamour and shout.
The bottle won't do much to keep them at bay;
I'm searching for another way out.
The medicine cabinet won't do the job,
Though it might dull the fear for a bit.
The crashing gets louder; I hear my self sob.
There is no where to run, this is it.
I check my defenses, meager as they are.
I find a slick, bloody kitchen knife.
I see a clear route, but dare I go that far?
All these thoughts are here to claim my life.
The world falls away with a resounding crash
As my brain hangs on fight versus flee.
My final decision, a decisive slash;
I sever the thoughts and become free.
– SR Romney 2023
As long as I can see the light
I will find my way back home
I know that things will be alright
As long as I can see the light
When all I know is out of sight
No matter how far I roam
As long as I can see the light
I will find my way back home
– SR Romney 2022
Friends' loyalty is important.
Most people better themselves;
Finding they value true friends with virtues.
With friends' true value,
They find themselves better people.
Most important is loyal friends.
– Shaman Romney 2021
Slothfully I lay
The day drifts
And it wastes away
I am left
With not much to say
Much to do
– SR Romney 2020
As info downloads via ear
And language is spread by finger
As lifetimes are learned in a year
As loved ones long lost can linger
We all must not forget our past
Or who we truly are at heart
If we are all going to last
We have to remember our start
– Shaman Romney 2019
Skies so blue, and trees so green
Gentle winds, my mind feels clean
The sunlight warms, my worries fade
Shade so cool, my fears allayed
This pleasant day, I feel at peace
Through it’s charm, I find release
– Shaman Romney 2018
Hesitation
Baited breath
An anxious mind
Worry over potential loss
Regret
Determination
Steeled resolve
A confident stride
Living for life’s victories
Success
– Shaman Romney 2017
Work me when I wake up
Work me every day
Work me til there is no other way
Work me til I’m anxious
Work me past too tired
Work me past the date that I’m expired
Work me when you want to
Work me when you can
Work me to the shell of a bitter man
Work me til I’m hopeless
Work me when I’m broken
Work me with false promises you’ve spoken
Work me past the bleeding,
Work me to the core
Work me til I’m not human anymore
Work me past exhaustion
Work me to the bone
Work me past the yearning to go home
Work me in my nightmares
Work me past my dreams
Work me til I’m ripping at the seams.
Work me til I’m screaming
Work me as l cry
Work me past the point of asking why
Work me when I’m tired
Work me when I’m done
Work me til you lose another one.
Work me where I’m standing
Work me in my bed
Work me til I’m on the ground, dead.
Work me past my mourning
Work me past my legacy
Work me til there’s nothing left of me.
– Shaman Romney 2016
I’m losing faith I never had
In a love left unreturned.
Unrequited love has left me burned.
Decimated,
This desiccated husk of a man lay
immolated.
As this love burns me more.
Burns me to the core.
Hope is gone,
Life; shattered.
I lost the only thing that mattered.
In my fucked-up, first-world problematic life.
I’m standing on the edge of a knife.
Waiting for the blow to end it all.
The final push that lets me fall
And reach the end,
the sweet release,
From all the pain I give to me.
– Shaman Romney 2016
I just can’t take it anymore,
My heart feels like it’s going to burst.
I want to throw it against wall
And make these feelings disappear.
These crazy-making emotions
That keep driving me out of my head
This emotional feedback has grown too strong.
I just want it to disappear.
No it’s never meant to be
This insane love inside of me
It’s fingers try to pull apart
The last parts of my battered heart.
Until the only thing that remains
Is memories of this love insane
I know that I cannot get through
My crazy, messed up love for you.
This diseased infatuation
I don’t want it anymore than you
Crippling, misguided, suffocation.
If only it would disappear.
This infliction sticks with me
Couldn’t drop it if I wanted to.
I don’t want this crazy to get on you.
Maybe I should disappear.
No it’s never meant to be
This insane love inside of me
It’s fingers try to pull apart
The last parts of my battered heart.
Until the only thing that remains
Is memories of this love insane
I know that I cannot get through
My crazy, messed up love for you.
– Shaman Romney 2015
Shame on The Universe 