I’m losing faith I never had
In a love left unreturned.
Unrequited love has left me burned.
Decimated,
This desiccated husk of a man lay
immolated.
As this love burns me more.
Burns me to the core.
Hope is gone,
Life; shattered.
I lost the only thing that mattered.
In my fucked-up, first-world problematic life.
I’m standing on the edge of a knife.
Waiting for the blow to end it all.
The final push that lets me fall
And reach the end,
the sweet release,
From all the pain I give to me.
– Shaman Romney 2016
I just can’t take it anymore,
My heart feels like it’s going to burst.
I want to throw it against wall
And make these feelings disappear.
These crazy-making emotions
That keep driving me out of my head
This emotional feedback has grown too strong.
I just want it to disappear.
No it’s never meant to be
This insane love inside of me
It’s fingers try to pull apart
The last parts of my battered heart.
Until the only thing that remains
Is memories of this love insane
I know that I cannot get through
My crazy, messed up love for you.
This diseased infatuation
I don’t want it anymore than you
Crippling, misguided, suffocation.
If only it would disappear.
This infliction sticks with me
Couldn’t drop it if I wanted to.
I don’t want this crazy to get on you.
Maybe I should disappear.
No it’s never meant to be
This insane love inside of me
It’s fingers try to pull apart
The last parts of my battered heart.
Until the only thing that remains
Is memories of this love insane
I know that I cannot get through
My crazy, messed up love for you.
– Shaman Romney 2015
Creativity,
Your sweet embrace eludes me.
Never finished thought.
Shaman Romney 2014
Shame on The Universe 