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I’d Kick My Own Butt   14 comments

Another day, another prompt.

If you could return to the past to relive a part of your life, either to experience the wonderful bits again, or to do something over, which part of you life would you return to? Why?

That was the first thing that came to mind. Now there are things I regret, but would be afraid to change since they define me and my relationships with people. Things like breaking up with the mother of my daughter, or the 3 year-long relationship that caused me all sorts of problems. Those things made me grow and mature, and as much as they sucked, I’m not sure I’d enjoy my life if the didn’t happen.

But there is something. I would go back and actually give a damn about school. High school, college, all of it. I don’t know what moment I would have to go back to, but I’d go back there and actually try. Back to senior year, when I constantly skipped my calculus class to go hang with my friends. Now, I love my friends, but I’d have seen them anyways. If I’d just finished that damn class, I’d probably be doing a job I like instead of this one I don’t.

Now that I think about it, I even have the specific day I’d go to. It’d be the day that my professor caught me and my friends cutting class. Thinking we were badasses, we just walked past him head held high like the rebellious little shits we were. Naturally, he gave everyone a super easy quiz and stopped caring about how I did. If I didn’t, why should he?

The irony of everything is that had I applied myself, I’d have passed. I’d have been able to take that credit to college, and go into engineering like I wanted. Instead, I tried to take it in college, got overwhelmed, failed it 3 times and went into accounting instead. Now, ironically, I am teaching myself calculus in my spare time, because now I value learning. It only took 5 years and thousands of dollars.

Stupid teenager. 🙂

Posted 04/01/2014 by Shaman in Daily Prompt

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What Ever Will Be Will Be (If We Will It To Be)   14 comments

Normally I don’t really do the daily prompts offered by WordPress, but this one actually caught my attention, so I here’s what I think.

Do you believe in fate or do you believe you can control your own destiny?

I’d like to believe in fate, I really would. The idea of being predestined to do something great, to find your one true love, to know that some day somehow you will achieve your life’s meaning, is comforting and warm. That is, until you really think about it.

Not everyone is destined to be an Einstein or a Mozart. If you look back at the billions of people who have lived and died on this planet, how many achieved anything more than just taking up space. Working themselves to the bone, to maybe achieve their own personal happiness, and the happiness of those around them. I’d think that would be a good life, but is that what you would want to be destined for? For happy mediocrity?

Plus, who’s to say you’d only be destined for good things? Just as you could be the next Gandhi, you could also be the next Saddam, or Stalin, or Hitler? Plus, if small good things can be predestined, who’s to say that your destiny isn’t to steal, cheat, gamble and rob? Having your life predestined, if you truly believed it, would rid you of all real resposibiltiy. You do anything wrong, its not your fault. It was just your destiny.

Scary thought, right?

I believe we choose our own fate. We are in charge of our own destiny. Our mistakes are ours to own, but so are all our accomplishments. Nobody controls you. Nothing can stop you from trying to acheive what you want. Nothing stands in the way of your happiness except you. Now, the circumstances you are born into, the twists and turns you take through out life can and will limit your choices. You aren’t completely in control, but you are in control of what you do about it.

I like to view life, destiny, fate, all of this, as a river. Everyone has a direction they are flowing towards. That is determined by where you were born, genetics, environment, and all the other things that you don’t really have any control over in the beginning. But even though you flow in a general direction, you get to choose the ebb and flow, where it branches and where it bends.. With enough gradual changes, you can even choose a whole new direction to flow towards. Then, when you reach the end, your “river” becomes a new starting point for others.

So in a sense you may have somewhat of a predestined path. But it was predestined by the ones who came before you, not some mystical power. You can challenge your path, and change it. All it takes is wanting and work.

But, everything could totally be predestined. I could just be predestined to disagree with the notion. Just like you could be predestined to agree/disagree with me. 🙂